It's been so long since I've visited this blog again. So long that I forgot it existed, until I felt terrible tonight and I had the urge to write it all out.

Why is it that relationship troubles can keep you up all night? I was dead tired earlier, but it's past five in the morning and I still haven't cracked open a yawn. Sometimes I wish I could just cry myself to sleep...at least then I'd be asleep. Instead, I get to stay up all night, feeling miserable.

I've spent more than two years and a half with my current boyfriend, and it's usually the most amazing thing ever. But sometimes, he can be so inconsiderate, and I am always the one left awake late at night in tears. It's hard to know when to let go. How do you ever know? It could be a mistake that I finally let him go...what if we could have worked it out? Then again, it could be a mistake that I won't let him go...what if this is only adding to my misery and unhealthy state of mind?

I feel terrible. Why won't you just let me sleep?

No, seeing as I already feel guilty for not becoming a physician. I feel guilty because I feel like I *should* become a physician to help others. But honestly, I don't think that career path is something for me personally. I can't deal with it.

It's okay though, because I feel like there is something else out there that will both fit my interests and help others. Right now? I'm aiming for a neurologist.

So obviously, endorsing in something *dangerous* is out of the question. I feel guilty enough as it is.

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ha ha. I was about to answer this question, but then I realized if I did that it would defeat the purpose of my Xanga (this is an anonymous blog) I just found that kind of humorous.

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